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NOW, I UNDERSTAND! by Josina Costa Viegas

NOW, I UNDERSTAND!

Josina Costa Viegas

Seeing birds outside their nests, in the middle of torrential rain, outside their shelters, pretending to chirp ardently, makes one suspicious, but they give no reason to do so. They need help, but they pretend they are fine. Yes…, in this round vault, life is really tough and everyday reality is painted with an indecipherable falsetto.

Countless times I have questioned myself about so much inhumanity, softened barbarity, insensitivity, and heightened militarism, in hospitals and health centers. Countless times I have questioned myself about so much arrogance, sense of superiority, so much contempt for patients and their families, in hospitals and health centers.

Countless times I was outraged by so much inertia, lack of readiness, and pleasure in witnessing the suffering and pain of others, in hospitals and health centers.

I could not understand how those who say, with their mouths full, “Our greatest value is life”, act with the greatest coldness, indifference, sluggishness, passivity and without heart. Out of a hundred of them, perhaps only ten are excepted…

Ugh, I understand now! Now, I understand! I discovered that everything starts with training:

The student dreams of wearing the white coat, he dreams of interacting with discouraged and broken patients, with humanism, with ethics and deontology, he dreams of relieving the patient's pain and suffering, but these are just beautiful and beneficent dreams that are, unfortunately, swallowed up in the period of training. Ugh, the tutors, who should teach, with fluidity, the practices, they are the ones who use shortcuts, they don't have the slightest bit of patience, however, on the contrary, they have the spirit of harming anyone, not even, often, after financial extortion and after sexual abuse, with threats of disapproval.

Ugh, I understand now! Now, I understand! I discovered that everything progresses in training:

The student does not have a name during internships and even worse during full internships. The student does not have his own identity, he is practically a walking, walking object; He has no one to defend him and he is brutally threatened, in order to close his mouth and die, little by little, without echo. The student is known for cheap or even free labor and, as such, his number of hours exceeds that recommended in his course. The student should only say and do “Yes”, “Exactly”, “Definitely”! And what about the chips? How many juggles did it take for the intern to sign it…? And what note

is printed? Is it really the real thing? Most of the interns only have the same nickname:

“Donkeys”.

Ugh, I understand now! Now, I understand! I discovered that everything is formalized in training:

The constant bad mood of Health Professionals, even if they refute it, is the result, it is a direct response to unconscious or conscious records dormant in the memory of traumas and reactions to unpronounceable ugly names, slavery, mistreatment (among which beatings), reprisals from guardians, compulsive extortion, sexual abuse, without the right to a defense attorney.

As long as training continues like this, in Mozambique, institutions will not be different, they will not be better... Either we assume that training must be done in this wrong way or we must urgently improve.

And who will heal the traumas that are permanently persecuted in the lives of Health Professionals already in practice?

Seeing birds outside their nests, in the middle of torrential rain, outside their shelters, pretending to chirp ardently, makes one suspicious, but they give no reason to do so.

They need help, but they pretend they are fine. Yes…, in this round vault, life is really tough and everyday reality is painted with an indecipherable falsetto.

Josina Abreu Assis da Costa Viegas was born in Quelimane (Zambézia, Mozambique), on January 13, 1964. She is a singer with two albums, and is President of AEZA (Association of Writers of Zambézia). She is Doctor in Literature and Philosophy, Licentiate Degree in Religious Education, Bachelor of Theology, Bachelor of the Portuguese Language Teacher Training Course with qualification in English. She is an honorary member of the Circle of Mozambican Writers in the Diaspora (CEMD), honorary member of the International Lusophone Movement (MIL), Vice- president of the Hispanoworldly Union of Writers, in Mozambique (UHE), Vice-president of the International Chamber of Writers and Artists (CIESART), in Mozambique and is an academic member of the Department, of the Republic of Mozambique, of the Mariinskaya Academy, called M.D. Shapovalenko; she is a member of the University Council of Unilicungo and a member of the International University Council of Cypress International Institute University.


Josina is the writer of the books “THE STRENGTH OF THE DREAM” and “FLAGING HORIZONS”, already edited, and “THE POWER OF THE WORD”, “FROM SUN TO SUN”, “I LOVE YOU, YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!”, “BATH IN THE AIR”, “TIC-TAC”, “THE BITTER SWEET”, “BLOOM ABORTED”, and AMNESIC METAMORPHOSES, still unpublished; has five poems in three Anthologies and 1 chronicle in one Anthology.


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